Listening..trying to listen

I am feeling weird today, and I am not sure why. I have been trying to search myself and figure out what is going on. I am not sure, but I think perhaps that God is trying to show me something or tell me something.

I have been at a fast pace this week. I have had the week off from the hospital, but have worked harder than I would have there. I feel consumed to get things in order. I have gotten up at my normal time each day and have done my best to accomplish as much as possible with what time I have available. Each day though, I have been sick~ nauseated...weak, just not myself.

I have no idea what is going on, but I sense that God is trying to speak to me...yet I am so consumed with what is in front of me, I can't hear him. I took a long hot bath a little while ago. I turned the jets on, let the water roar, and closed my eyes. I tried to only focus on what He may be telling me.

This is what I got; s l o w down. breathe. figure out your focus. what are you doing right now that is truly important. how can you help others to hear, when you are not taking the time yourself. you want me to fill you with my power and yet you are doing nothing with it. if you don't know what i am telling you and showing you, how can you tell others. take the time to spend with me. let's re-establish our own relationship, then focus on the others. don't become so engrossed with religion that you lose sight of what is important..what is true. don't forget your first love.

These are the verses that are ringing in my mind, I am certain God is speaking to me through this.
Revelation 2:2-13 2I know your deeds, your hard work and your perseverance. I know that you cannot tolerate wicked men, that you have tested those who claim to be apostles but are not, and have found them false. 3You have persevered and have endured hardships for my name, and have not grown weary. 4Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love. 5Remember the height from which you have fallen! Repent and do the things you did at first. If you do not repent, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place. 6But you have this in your favor: You hate the practices of the Nicolaitans, which I also hate. 7He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches. To him who overcomes, I will give the right to eat from the tree of life, which is in the paradise of God.
8"To the angel of the church in Smyrna write: These are the words of him who is the First and the Last, who died and came to life again. 9I know your afflictions and your poverty—yet you are rich! I know the slander of those who say they are Jews and are not, but are a synagogue of Satan. 10Do not be afraid of what you are about to suffer. I tell you, the devil will put some of you in prison to test you, and you will suffer persecution for ten days. Be faithful, even to the point of death, and I will give you the crown of life. 11He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches. He who overcomes will not be hurt at all by the second death.
12"To the angel of the church in Pergamum write: These are the words of him who has the sharp, double-edged sword. 13I know where you live—where Satan has his throne. Yet you remain true to my name. You did not renounce your faith in me, even in the days of Antipas, my faithful witness, who was put to death in your city—where Satan lives.