Saturday! My first Saturday in I don't know how long, that I have nothing I HAVE to do. I told myself last night I was going to sleep late, hang around and not be worried about anything at all. So I woke up this morning and I tried to just lay in bed and be lazy..snuggle up with my blanket. I turned this way and that way.. I stretched out, I curled up, I laid in the middle of the bed, on my "side" , on Greg's "side"... everything felt totally comfortable, I was all set to do nothing at all. I was looking forward to it!
It just wasn't happening though. No matter how comfy I felt, I kept trying different positions. For some reason, nothing kept me satisfied very long. Nothing seemed to be what I had imagined to be, or desired it to be. Was I going to give up?? NO way! This was the day I had been waiting for! Freedom to do whatever I pleased.
I was lying there thinking how typical this would have been of my past life. Searching and searching for the thing that would make me happy, fulfilled... content. I tried everything. I looked everywhere. I was sure that there was something out there that would make this world what I had imagined it would be like as an adult. The thing is, nothing I tried or did really ever met the cravings I had. Did I give up? NO way! This is what I had been waiting for! Freedom to do whatever I pleased.
God kept trying to play this part in my life. He kept trying to show me a way that would be fulfilling... but I knew more. I knew that there was more to life out there, I just had not found it yet. I ignored Him. I continued on my search and had my own goals. Nothing really changed though. Oh, I could find things that seemed to be what would make me happy. The thing is they were so temporary, and always resulted in unhappiness somehow or another in the end.
When I let all go, all my pre-conceived notions... and I honestly gave God the opportunity to love me, to show me love and happiness, WOW! Things are amazing. Seriously amazing. I learned about loving God. I started falling in love with God, like you would anyone that you have a true connected relationship with. I never realized that I could love God. I knew I was supposed to. How different was this feeling! It spread to other areas of my life. I began seeing things differently. I began seeing how wonderful and fun and awesome life is. I began to understand that you can't always have a plan. Sometimes you have to let the plan have you.
So, reluctantly... I threw the covers aside this morning, and rolled out of bed. I am so glad I did! This is going to be a great day, I have been blessed!
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
I wanna be a child of the LIGHT
We have Internet!! Wow, to live back in the day without it... I dunno. I miss the contact I have with people via the net. So, I am back in business here and ready to get writing!!
Another big thanks to all the wonderful people who went out of their way to help us these last couple of weeks! Huge thanks to my sister Carolyn, who packed things, moved things, primed, painted, cleaned..you name it. The girl never stops, puts me to shame time and time again! I love that she has so much energy though! A blessing for me :-)
I have had time to absorb God's word over the last couple of weeks. It has been pleasant. Sometimes we get so caught up, we just throw a few minutes here and there..but don't truly take the time to read, study, and absorb His word. It is sorta funny to me sometimes how I might have read something many many times over a vast number of years, and then BOOM. I understand what it says. God's word has this effect on me. I know that His word never changes...so it must be me! I am so thankful that God has given that opportunity, to change. Not everyone allows it. Some people hold onto things that have happened, words said, wrong actions taken....... and they just keep on holding on. They can't see past the incident, and everything just stops for them there. I have been guilty of it myself. There was a person that I was like this with for years. YEARS, even after becoming a Christian. I heard her name and would cringe. The thought of her just made my blood get hot. It is so crazy. She has no idea the amount of time I have spent allowing a particular event to define her for me. She has no idea, and I seriously doubt that she cares at all. I however, kept it alive and updated. Refreshing my mind with continual bad thoughts and hurt feelings.
I can only imagine how horrible my life would be right now, if God were like that to me. If He never gave me another chance. If He didn't care to give me the opportunity to change. If He didn't even try to move past my failures, my sins.
We should be following the example that was given us. We cannot be the same person we once were. We cannot assume other people are the same as they once were. It is like the Bible talks about in 1st John, the outside of the cup being clean, but the inside never touched. God looks to the inside, He looks to the heart. He knows your heart. Do you need to give someone another chance? Do you maybe need to not give another chance, but let go of the hurt and anger and pain it caused you? Do it. Don't allow someone else to steal your JOY in Christ. You can't be in the dark and in the light.
Another big thanks to all the wonderful people who went out of their way to help us these last couple of weeks! Huge thanks to my sister Carolyn, who packed things, moved things, primed, painted, cleaned..you name it. The girl never stops, puts me to shame time and time again! I love that she has so much energy though! A blessing for me :-)
I have had time to absorb God's word over the last couple of weeks. It has been pleasant. Sometimes we get so caught up, we just throw a few minutes here and there..but don't truly take the time to read, study, and absorb His word. It is sorta funny to me sometimes how I might have read something many many times over a vast number of years, and then BOOM. I understand what it says. God's word has this effect on me. I know that His word never changes...so it must be me! I am so thankful that God has given that opportunity, to change. Not everyone allows it. Some people hold onto things that have happened, words said, wrong actions taken....... and they just keep on holding on. They can't see past the incident, and everything just stops for them there. I have been guilty of it myself. There was a person that I was like this with for years. YEARS, even after becoming a Christian. I heard her name and would cringe. The thought of her just made my blood get hot. It is so crazy. She has no idea the amount of time I have spent allowing a particular event to define her for me. She has no idea, and I seriously doubt that she cares at all. I however, kept it alive and updated. Refreshing my mind with continual bad thoughts and hurt feelings.
I can only imagine how horrible my life would be right now, if God were like that to me. If He never gave me another chance. If He didn't care to give me the opportunity to change. If He didn't even try to move past my failures, my sins.
We should be following the example that was given us. We cannot be the same person we once were. We cannot assume other people are the same as they once were. It is like the Bible talks about in 1st John, the outside of the cup being clean, but the inside never touched. God looks to the inside, He looks to the heart. He knows your heart. Do you need to give someone another chance? Do you maybe need to not give another chance, but let go of the hurt and anger and pain it caused you? Do it. Don't allow someone else to steal your JOY in Christ. You can't be in the dark and in the light.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Prayer
Samuel Chadwick on Prayer
Here is a great quote on prayer that was sent to me
"The one concern of the devil is to keep saints from prayer. He fears nothing from prayerless studies, prayerless work, prayerless religion. He laughs at our toil, mocks our wisdom, but trembles when we pray." Samuel Chadwick
Here is a great quote on prayer that was sent to me
"The one concern of the devil is to keep saints from prayer. He fears nothing from prayerless studies, prayerless work, prayerless religion. He laughs at our toil, mocks our wisdom, but trembles when we pray." Samuel Chadwick
From Pastor Nate
"I have been thinking a lot about faith lately. In staff devotions Wednesday we read Hebrews 11:1,2, "Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction (evidence) of things not seen. For by it the men of old gained approval." Quite simpy, faith is being sure of what is unseen. We can say we intellectually believe something, but if our life does not match that belief, I believe, we really don't believe that at all. There are many people who go to church, say they have a belief in God, but their lives do not match their beliefs. So do they really believe these things? If faith is the "evidence" or the "conviction" of the things not seen, then faith ought to be seen by our lives because we live them with conviction, evidence of our faith, and assurance. Faith in Christ is not just another activity in our life like, golfing, swimming, or watching TV. Faith in Christ is our life, and this faith needs to be seen IN our lives by our decisions, our character, our choices, our spending,our relationships, our scheduling, and our convictions. I want to be a person that consistently lives my faith. I want Christ to be my life, not a part of my life, or some ideology stuffed in my brain. Our faith in Christ must be our lives!" Pastor Nate
Simple Faith and Plain Truth
I cannot believe that a week has past since I have written in here! Wow... time flies when you are having fun!!
1 Timothy 2: The Message
Simple Faith and Plain Truth 1-3
The first thing I want you to do is pray. Pray every way you know how, for everyone you know. Pray especially for rulers and their governments to rule well so we can be quietly about our business of living simply, in humble contemplation. This is the way our Savior God wants us to live.
We started a new ministry at our church this past Sunday, called Partners in Prayer. There is a book by the same name written by John Maxwell. I mentioned it on here before and how I would love for our church to do that... Well, a friend of mine and I are going for it! We held a meeting last week regarding our plans, and had pretty good attendance. We got great ideas and input. We went ahead and began the official ministry last Sunday. Things were not necessarily smooth sailing, but I thought they went pretty well considering it was our first Sunday to implement it. We had great participation from people for first and second service. How uplifting to gather in a group and bring your needs before God. There is power in prayer no doubt, I believe it is maximized with great numbers. We still have alot to learn, and much to organize. For now though, we are going with the flow of how God directs us. Please be in prayer for our church as we undertake this.
1 Timothy 2: The Message
Simple Faith and Plain Truth 1-3
The first thing I want you to do is pray. Pray every way you know how, for everyone you know. Pray especially for rulers and their governments to rule well so we can be quietly about our business of living simply, in humble contemplation. This is the way our Savior God wants us to live.
We started a new ministry at our church this past Sunday, called Partners in Prayer. There is a book by the same name written by John Maxwell. I mentioned it on here before and how I would love for our church to do that... Well, a friend of mine and I are going for it! We held a meeting last week regarding our plans, and had pretty good attendance. We got great ideas and input. We went ahead and began the official ministry last Sunday. Things were not necessarily smooth sailing, but I thought they went pretty well considering it was our first Sunday to implement it. We had great participation from people for first and second service. How uplifting to gather in a group and bring your needs before God. There is power in prayer no doubt, I believe it is maximized with great numbers. We still have alot to learn, and much to organize. For now though, we are going with the flow of how God directs us. Please be in prayer for our church as we undertake this.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Complaint-Free Me??
A friend of mine at work bought us some bracelets that are part of the "complaint free world" campaign. Basically you wear the bracelet, and any time you think negative or complain (including gossiping) you have to move the bracelet to the other hand. Your goal is to make it 21 days without having moved it to the other wrist. That is supposed to help you become more aware of what is coming out of your mouth, and what is residing in your mind!
The first day, I didn't make it 21 minutes, but I think I moved it at least 21 times. The second day I was certainly more aware, though I still moved it quite often. By the third day, it was staying on one arm for greater lengths of time. Today..which is like day 14 or so... I still have not made it an entire day with no complaints, BUT... I only move it on occasion. It has been pretty cool to make yourself realize what you sound like to other people, and to change that behavior. I never considered myself too much of a negative person, yet it appears I could certainly refine that area.
It seems like in this day and age no one can just be happy. To greet someone and not hear something negative from them is almost shocking. How come it is totally kosher to gripe and complain and talk about how tired and broke and blah blah blah you are~~ How much different all of our lives may be if we tried to change that behavior. We have life so easy, and yet we probably complain more than any nation. Make an effort to day to realize what comes out of your mouth. Try building others up, and forget about yourself. Believe it or not, it really and truly is not all about you anyway. (should I move my bracelet?)
The first day, I didn't make it 21 minutes, but I think I moved it at least 21 times. The second day I was certainly more aware, though I still moved it quite often. By the third day, it was staying on one arm for greater lengths of time. Today..which is like day 14 or so... I still have not made it an entire day with no complaints, BUT... I only move it on occasion. It has been pretty cool to make yourself realize what you sound like to other people, and to change that behavior. I never considered myself too much of a negative person, yet it appears I could certainly refine that area.
It seems like in this day and age no one can just be happy. To greet someone and not hear something negative from them is almost shocking. How come it is totally kosher to gripe and complain and talk about how tired and broke and blah blah blah you are~~ How much different all of our lives may be if we tried to change that behavior. We have life so easy, and yet we probably complain more than any nation. Make an effort to day to realize what comes out of your mouth. Try building others up, and forget about yourself. Believe it or not, it really and truly is not all about you anyway. (should I move my bracelet?)
Tuesday, August 05, 2008
Do it !
I got a new view on life Sunday. It wasn't anything profound that someone said to me, or anything I read... I was about a milli-second from seriously being dead.
I was a blink of an eye from being t-boned. I am most positive, that had I been hit, I would not have survived. The really weird thing though, is that it didn't so much scare me as make me more aware of things. My first thought was that God wasn't finished me with me here yet. It wasn't my time. My second thought was, what am I doing with my time?
It is odd how much we take for granted and assume will be here tomorrow.
Even the grass seemed different to me. I have thought about things like, what if today were your last. BUT, I don't know that I have truly put into my mind the ramifications, if today were my last. It is really different being there than merely thinking it.
We may never get another chance. Today may be our final parting words. It may be our last opportunity to make the world a better place, to bring a smile to someones face...to listen to the birds. To sing, to play , to dance.
MOST importantly, as good as all that sounds..... today may be our last to turn our lives around.
What do you wish you would have done? Do it!
I was a blink of an eye from being t-boned. I am most positive, that had I been hit, I would not have survived. The really weird thing though, is that it didn't so much scare me as make me more aware of things. My first thought was that God wasn't finished me with me here yet. It wasn't my time. My second thought was, what am I doing with my time?
It is odd how much we take for granted and assume will be here tomorrow.
Even the grass seemed different to me. I have thought about things like, what if today were your last. BUT, I don't know that I have truly put into my mind the ramifications, if today were my last. It is really different being there than merely thinking it.
We may never get another chance. Today may be our final parting words. It may be our last opportunity to make the world a better place, to bring a smile to someones face...to listen to the birds. To sing, to play , to dance.
MOST importantly, as good as all that sounds..... today may be our last to turn our lives around.
What do you wish you would have done? Do it!
Saturday, July 26, 2008
We rise and we fall and we rise again
"Search me O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me,and lead me into the way everlasting. Psalm 139:23-24
I saw this scripture today, and just had to STOP. Is this part of what had been going on with me? Have I asked God to do this and then decided that due to my own request, now, He couldn't exist for doing it?
I am told that the desire for a different life doesn't appear out of thin area. You can wait around and long for this, or you can keep company with the One who delivers it. You wouldn't want more of God if the Holy Spirit wasn't seeking/pursing you. And....You know what, I have come to believe that the Spirit starts pursuing you when you start going astray. Sometimes you have to be slapped in the face to get your attention again.
When you find yourself somewhere out there, When nothing seems to be going the right way and you are stuck in this land of frustration.... You have to take this as an opportunity to draw closer. Look at it as an opportunity to grow and learn and become stronger and deeper in your faith. It may not seem like that at first. It may seem completely the opposite. Burning the candle at both ends though can burn out the soul as well as the body. Maybe you need to STOP, take inventory and reconnect. Acts 2:42
I saw this scripture today, and just had to STOP. Is this part of what had been going on with me? Have I asked God to do this and then decided that due to my own request, now, He couldn't exist for doing it?
I am told that the desire for a different life doesn't appear out of thin area. You can wait around and long for this, or you can keep company with the One who delivers it. You wouldn't want more of God if the Holy Spirit wasn't seeking/pursing you. And....You know what, I have come to believe that the Spirit starts pursuing you when you start going astray. Sometimes you have to be slapped in the face to get your attention again.
When you find yourself somewhere out there, When nothing seems to be going the right way and you are stuck in this land of frustration.... You have to take this as an opportunity to draw closer. Look at it as an opportunity to grow and learn and become stronger and deeper in your faith. It may not seem like that at first. It may seem completely the opposite. Burning the candle at both ends though can burn out the soul as well as the body. Maybe you need to STOP, take inventory and reconnect. Acts 2:42
Monday, July 21, 2008
Let the little children come to me, and do not forbid them; for of such is the kingdom of God. Mark 10:14
I have heard this said over and over. For a long time I thought God just liked kids better! I really didn't understand the whole implication of being childlike. I could see the innocence perhaps, but what was it that so made children rank so high with God?
I have been reading a book called "Approaching God" by Steve Brown. It is a book that is basically telling us that prayer isn't some big fancy thing. It is simply communication between a child and his father. In our desire to be a grown up and to fit in to this world, we forget about the child qualities that are so endearing to all. Jesus specifically said that unless we are converted and become like children, we will not enter heaven. What does this mean? I don't know exactly, but I think I have a better picture now.
God is the kind of father everyone wants. He likes to spend time with his children. He cares and he loves us unconditionally. A love that is hard to comprehend at times. Remember this as you go to him. Lay aside your inhibitions, there is no right or wrong way to pray. The heart of the matter is where the importance lies. If you don't know what to say, tell God just that! Don't know where to start? No problem, Tell him that and start in the middle if you want to. It isn't like he doesn't already know...but he still wants you to discuss it with him. Have that childlike faith. Childlike trust.
The following is from the book, Approaching God: "Have that childlike joy.. no matter what happens, there is always joy around the corner! When was the last time you giggled and didn't care what anyone thought? When was the last time you did something "improper" and took joy in it? When was the last time you sang and danced and didn't care if someone thought you lost your mind? When is the last time that you lay in the grass just to look at the sky? What about honesty?, Is there anything so honest as child in just telling it how it is? "
As I read all of this from Steve Brown's book, it began to dawn on me what God means by being a child. Being real, enjoying life, being honest, true to yourself and the joy within you. Let the little children come to me, and do not forbid them; for of such is the kingdom of God. Mark 10:14
I have been reading a book called "Approaching God" by Steve Brown. It is a book that is basically telling us that prayer isn't some big fancy thing. It is simply communication between a child and his father. In our desire to be a grown up and to fit in to this world, we forget about the child qualities that are so endearing to all. Jesus specifically said that unless we are converted and become like children, we will not enter heaven. What does this mean? I don't know exactly, but I think I have a better picture now.
God is the kind of father everyone wants. He likes to spend time with his children. He cares and he loves us unconditionally. A love that is hard to comprehend at times. Remember this as you go to him. Lay aside your inhibitions, there is no right or wrong way to pray. The heart of the matter is where the importance lies. If you don't know what to say, tell God just that! Don't know where to start? No problem, Tell him that and start in the middle if you want to. It isn't like he doesn't already know...but he still wants you to discuss it with him. Have that childlike faith. Childlike trust.
The following is from the book, Approaching God: "Have that childlike joy.. no matter what happens, there is always joy around the corner! When was the last time you giggled and didn't care what anyone thought? When was the last time you did something "improper" and took joy in it? When was the last time you sang and danced and didn't care if someone thought you lost your mind? When is the last time that you lay in the grass just to look at the sky? What about honesty?, Is there anything so honest as child in just telling it how it is? "
As I read all of this from Steve Brown's book, it began to dawn on me what God means by being a child. Being real, enjoying life, being honest, true to yourself and the joy within you. Let the little children come to me, and do not forbid them; for of such is the kingdom of God. Mark 10:14
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Rise Up
What a beautiful Sunday! The weather is awesome the birds are singing and the wild flowers just look artistic! Our sermon was great today. We have been reviewing the fruits of the spirit. The whole series has been enlightening, but most especially the last three weeks for me. Today was on KINDNESS. Specifically on "How to Treat People with Kindness".
Colossians 3:12 (New International Version)
12Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.
James 2:8
8If you really keep the royal law found in Scripture, "Love your neighbor as yourself,"[a] you are doing right.
Does this not seem it would be easy? On a scale of 1-10, 10 being the hardest, these commands should not be too high up on being able to accomplish them. They take nothing other than the gifts God freely has given us. We don't have to research, go to school, read, nothing... They are just given to us. All we have to do is to receive them. Receive them, and...oh, um... USE THEM! Perhaps we should even go a bit farther than using them, perhaps we should display them. Imagine the difference we could make in this city, in this world of ours if we did clothe ourselves with compassion and kindness..gentleness. What if it exuded from the depths of our souls~
As our pastor told us today, accept everybody. Find something good about them and focus on it. We all have room to grow. We all have faults, we all have strengths. I am not who I was, I am not who I am going to be. Allow the room for growth in everyone. If you have that one particular person that just grates on your nerves... stop right now. Before you do anything else, find a strength in that person. Pray for the person and your ability to focus on the strength. Commit yourself to letting them know about it. Strive to make a connection with them and to love them for who they are. Rise above, reach out and take the gifts that are so freely given.
Colossians 3:12 (New International Version)
12Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.
James 2:8
8If you really keep the royal law found in Scripture, "Love your neighbor as yourself,"[a] you are doing right.
Does this not seem it would be easy? On a scale of 1-10, 10 being the hardest, these commands should not be too high up on being able to accomplish them. They take nothing other than the gifts God freely has given us. We don't have to research, go to school, read, nothing... They are just given to us. All we have to do is to receive them. Receive them, and...oh, um... USE THEM! Perhaps we should even go a bit farther than using them, perhaps we should display them. Imagine the difference we could make in this city, in this world of ours if we did clothe ourselves with compassion and kindness..gentleness. What if it exuded from the depths of our souls~
As our pastor told us today, accept everybody. Find something good about them and focus on it. We all have room to grow. We all have faults, we all have strengths. I am not who I was, I am not who I am going to be. Allow the room for growth in everyone. If you have that one particular person that just grates on your nerves... stop right now. Before you do anything else, find a strength in that person. Pray for the person and your ability to focus on the strength. Commit yourself to letting them know about it. Strive to make a connection with them and to love them for who they are. Rise above, reach out and take the gifts that are so freely given.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Whatever You do to the Least of These
We went and walked for a bit downtown this evening. A young girl, possibly 20, came up to us and asked if we had any extra change. We actually had no money on us at all, just a debit card. I apologetically told her so. She just smiled and walked on. I had never had this happen to me in Bloomington before. I have been to various places and had people approach me for money, but never here in my hometown. Something about her just pulled my heart in. I don't know for sure what it was. She seemed so innocent. She appeared to be pregnant. She was clean and somewhat timid really.
We were actually almost back to our car prior to her asking us. We got in, and I felt sick about it. I felt like it was a chance for me to be Jesus to someone, and I had struck out. We began to drive and I asked Greg if it was wrong of me to not give her anything. We both felt funny about it. We also don't know when we are being taken advantage of and when someone needs help. How do you know this? I got to thinking about how hard that would be to go and ask someone if they had any extra change. a complete stranger. Then I wondered what made her choose us? She had walked by others on her way to us. Did we look more approachable and friendly? Was it my shirt that said, "Spread The Love"? Was I spreading the love? Was God giving me an opportunity to be an angel here on earth, and I just walked right by it? How do you know what is right?
We had planned on getting a bite to eat, but by this point I could not eat. It just seemed wrong. The rest of the way home I prayed about it. We pulled into our driveway and I really felt like God was telling me to go in and grab some money and take it to her, to help her...but to also tell her about Him. I conveyed this Greg and he was fine with that.
I had ordered some booklets awhile back that have the Gospel of John in them. They are real small, decorative, and easy to read. I grabbed one of those as well, and headed back to the car. I drove to where we had seen her, but I couldn't find her. I circled back around, no luck. I felt the need to do it one more time. I did, and I saw her. I went back around the block, I pulled the car over, and got out. I walked up to her and talked a little, handed her the book and the money. She seemed shocked that I came back. She smiled. As I turned to leave, she said "Bless You". I wanted to hug her, but I didn't. I didn't want to freak her out.
It was done, I had already been blessed. My heart felt right again. So did God put this person in my path? Did I make a difference to her? Did I help her, Did I hinder her? Will she read the book? Did she hear the words I said? I don't know. I don't know at all. What I do know is that I have peace about reaching out and trying to be Jesus. I think that is what we are to do. I will pray for her and I know that will do her more good that all the money in the world. I may go back later this week and see if I see her again. Ask if she had a chance to read the book... Be praying about that encounter for me.
We were actually almost back to our car prior to her asking us. We got in, and I felt sick about it. I felt like it was a chance for me to be Jesus to someone, and I had struck out. We began to drive and I asked Greg if it was wrong of me to not give her anything. We both felt funny about it. We also don't know when we are being taken advantage of and when someone needs help. How do you know this? I got to thinking about how hard that would be to go and ask someone if they had any extra change. a complete stranger. Then I wondered what made her choose us? She had walked by others on her way to us. Did we look more approachable and friendly? Was it my shirt that said, "Spread The Love"? Was I spreading the love? Was God giving me an opportunity to be an angel here on earth, and I just walked right by it? How do you know what is right?
We had planned on getting a bite to eat, but by this point I could not eat. It just seemed wrong. The rest of the way home I prayed about it. We pulled into our driveway and I really felt like God was telling me to go in and grab some money and take it to her, to help her...but to also tell her about Him. I conveyed this Greg and he was fine with that.
I had ordered some booklets awhile back that have the Gospel of John in them. They are real small, decorative, and easy to read. I grabbed one of those as well, and headed back to the car. I drove to where we had seen her, but I couldn't find her. I circled back around, no luck. I felt the need to do it one more time. I did, and I saw her. I went back around the block, I pulled the car over, and got out. I walked up to her and talked a little, handed her the book and the money. She seemed shocked that I came back. She smiled. As I turned to leave, she said "Bless You". I wanted to hug her, but I didn't. I didn't want to freak her out.
It was done, I had already been blessed. My heart felt right again. So did God put this person in my path? Did I make a difference to her? Did I help her, Did I hinder her? Will she read the book? Did she hear the words I said? I don't know. I don't know at all. What I do know is that I have peace about reaching out and trying to be Jesus. I think that is what we are to do. I will pray for her and I know that will do her more good that all the money in the world. I may go back later this week and see if I see her again. Ask if she had a chance to read the book... Be praying about that encounter for me.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
who's got your back?
When you give Satan the stronghold, he takes it. I realize now that is exactly what I did last week. It had been coming up, weeks had been spent working on this. He had slowly been sabotaging my faith...I just didn't realize it. I didn't realize it until this morning actually! I was listening to Spirit 95 on the radio. I am not sure who was talking, but they began speaking about how Satan attacks. It was pretty interesting to listen to.
They also explained how when Satan is close to pulling it off, he pours it on hard, doing all he can to make you lose your faith..and when he realizes that you are NOT giving up on God, he backs off. Satan has no desire to wrestle with God. He has been defeated through Christ. When he sees where your alliance truly is and where you are gaining your power from he goes away. He waits to come back during another moment of weakness in your life. This is exactly why you have to be on top of your game. You have got to have all of your resources in place, and you have got to be prepared to battle. You never know when the battle may occur. You have GOT to be in the word. You have GOT to keep that daily time speaking to God. You have GOT to have prayer partners...other Christians willing to watch your back.
After I heard that on the radio this morning. I just had to smile and thank God for placing people in my life that were willing to watch my back. I thought about how I had felt last week. How I felt in the last few weeks before it all came to head. It is amazing to me how different I feel today. How different this entire week had been. I GOT my joy back. What can me more awesome than that?
They also explained how when Satan is close to pulling it off, he pours it on hard, doing all he can to make you lose your faith..and when he realizes that you are NOT giving up on God, he backs off. Satan has no desire to wrestle with God. He has been defeated through Christ. When he sees where your alliance truly is and where you are gaining your power from he goes away. He waits to come back during another moment of weakness in your life. This is exactly why you have to be on top of your game. You have got to have all of your resources in place, and you have got to be prepared to battle. You never know when the battle may occur. You have GOT to be in the word. You have GOT to keep that daily time speaking to God. You have GOT to have prayer partners...other Christians willing to watch your back.
After I heard that on the radio this morning. I just had to smile and thank God for placing people in my life that were willing to watch my back. I thought about how I had felt last week. How I felt in the last few weeks before it all came to head. It is amazing to me how different I feel today. How different this entire week had been. I GOT my joy back. What can me more awesome than that?
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
Pursuit
I am thankful that God does pursue us, even when we aren't pursuing him! His cleverness never ceases to amazes me.
I felt so prompted Sunday to go to the altar, to go for prayer... and yet I felt glued to my spot. People in our church don't go forward too much. Seems we tend to keep our hurts amongst ourselves. The really funny thing is, I had no desire to even go to church this week (nor the last couple of weeks). I just "happened" to wake up without my alarm going off, and I just "happened" to attend a service that talked about peace in our lives, and I just "happened" to have my heart repaired.
So yeah, as they were singing that last song, I had a small battle within my own soul. I was certain that the Spirit was prompting me to go forward and yet my flesh was holding me back. I kept thinking, people don't do this in our church... Suddenly it was more than just me in control and I did find myself going forward. One of the elders came with me and prayed with me. I didn't even know what to say to him, " I think I've lost my faith?" "Does God really exist?" How do you tell someone rooted in their faith that you are feeling like faith is a joke right now? I just told him the best I could at the time, and you know what? He understood. He listened, he encouraged me, he told me of his own valleys, he prayed with me, he invited me to call on him or anyone else there..to not make myself try to handle it on my own. He told me it was ok to question God. It was ok to not understand. We prayed, we hugged..and I was touched by God.
Today, I feel 500 times better. I know that there have been people praying for me, for me specifically. God has lifted the hurt from my heart. I cannot even explain the difference within me. Had these people not been so willing to intercede for me, I don't know what might be happening today. I am blessed to have God in my life and have Godly people willing to sacrifice for me. Sometimes you go through the fire and you are tougher and stronger because of it. And you know what? If I feel like going to the front for prayer, I AM GOING, cause I know that sharing our burdens and praying for one and another work!
I felt so prompted Sunday to go to the altar, to go for prayer... and yet I felt glued to my spot. People in our church don't go forward too much. Seems we tend to keep our hurts amongst ourselves. The really funny thing is, I had no desire to even go to church this week (nor the last couple of weeks). I just "happened" to wake up without my alarm going off, and I just "happened" to attend a service that talked about peace in our lives, and I just "happened" to have my heart repaired.
So yeah, as they were singing that last song, I had a small battle within my own soul. I was certain that the Spirit was prompting me to go forward and yet my flesh was holding me back. I kept thinking, people don't do this in our church... Suddenly it was more than just me in control and I did find myself going forward. One of the elders came with me and prayed with me. I didn't even know what to say to him, " I think I've lost my faith?" "Does God really exist?" How do you tell someone rooted in their faith that you are feeling like faith is a joke right now? I just told him the best I could at the time, and you know what? He understood. He listened, he encouraged me, he told me of his own valleys, he prayed with me, he invited me to call on him or anyone else there..to not make myself try to handle it on my own. He told me it was ok to question God. It was ok to not understand. We prayed, we hugged..and I was touched by God.
Today, I feel 500 times better. I know that there have been people praying for me, for me specifically. God has lifted the hurt from my heart. I cannot even explain the difference within me. Had these people not been so willing to intercede for me, I don't know what might be happening today. I am blessed to have God in my life and have Godly people willing to sacrifice for me. Sometimes you go through the fire and you are tougher and stronger because of it. And you know what? If I feel like going to the front for prayer, I AM GOING, cause I know that sharing our burdens and praying for one and another work!
Monday, July 07, 2008
Be still and know that I am God Pslams 46:10
1 Corinthians 13:12 "Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully know."
There are times when circumstances don't add up. There are times when things don't make sense. This is the Christian life no one tells you about, so you may not realize it exist. It does exist, for a purpose we may not know just yet. Don't allow it to let you fall flat on your face. Remember what He tells us in Romans 8:28, "...works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."
Isaiah 41:10 tells us that "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
I have found myself letting my thoughts wither my spirit. I have been filled with confusion. "If only it all made sense.." I tell myself. Then maybe I could bear the results.
I have found myself disillusioned with God. The thing is, God hasn't changed. He has proven himself over and over again. I lost my connection and allowed myself to think He didn't care, that suddenly he was some other God.
I put expectations on God, unrealistic and unfounded expectations. Perhaps this has been a test of my faith, though I don't feel that God would just single me out and punish me... sometimes our faith does need refined.
Faith has been defined as the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen. I have not been cut from the vine, I have located the peace within my soul and I will keep the faith. God is faithful. One day we will see clearly. One day we will all be accountable for this life we live. Psalms 46:10 "Be still and know that I am God."
There are times when circumstances don't add up. There are times when things don't make sense. This is the Christian life no one tells you about, so you may not realize it exist. It does exist, for a purpose we may not know just yet. Don't allow it to let you fall flat on your face. Remember what He tells us in Romans 8:28, "...works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."
Isaiah 41:10 tells us that "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
I have found myself letting my thoughts wither my spirit. I have been filled with confusion. "If only it all made sense.." I tell myself. Then maybe I could bear the results.
I have found myself disillusioned with God. The thing is, God hasn't changed. He has proven himself over and over again. I lost my connection and allowed myself to think He didn't care, that suddenly he was some other God.
I put expectations on God, unrealistic and unfounded expectations. Perhaps this has been a test of my faith, though I don't feel that God would just single me out and punish me... sometimes our faith does need refined.
Faith has been defined as the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen. I have not been cut from the vine, I have located the peace within my soul and I will keep the faith. God is faithful. One day we will see clearly. One day we will all be accountable for this life we live. Psalms 46:10 "Be still and know that I am God."
Sunday, July 06, 2008
Sometimes I forget this...
Philippians 4:6 (New International Version)
6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
Philippians 4:6 (Amplified Bible)
6Do not fret or have any anxiety about anything, but in every circumstance and in everything, by prayer and petition ([a]definite requests), with thanksgiving, continue to make your wants known to God.
Philippians 4:6 (New King James Version)
6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God;
Philippians 4:6 (Worldwide English (New Testament))
6Do not worry about anything. Talk to God about everything. Thank him for what you have. Ask him for what you need.
Lately my heart has been hurting over various things. Instead of taking these hurts to God and seeking peace and healing...instead of giving thanksgiving... instead of trusting that God does know what is best~ I have taken it upon myself to make those decisions and assumptions.
It really isn't working out too well for me. We make the choice of what leads us. It can be the Holy Spirit, or it can be the flesh. Sometimes you have to struggle, you have to endure and respond with love, as Christ would. Wrestling with God causes upheavel, not peace. I don't want to wrestle anymore. I am ready to lay flat out on my back, shoulders down, pinned to His will. Sometimes it is so hard to just surrender and have faith.
6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
Philippians 4:6 (Amplified Bible)
6Do not fret or have any anxiety about anything, but in every circumstance and in everything, by prayer and petition ([a]definite requests), with thanksgiving, continue to make your wants known to God.
Philippians 4:6 (New King James Version)
6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God;
Philippians 4:6 (Worldwide English (New Testament))
6Do not worry about anything. Talk to God about everything. Thank him for what you have. Ask him for what you need.
Lately my heart has been hurting over various things. Instead of taking these hurts to God and seeking peace and healing...instead of giving thanksgiving... instead of trusting that God does know what is best~ I have taken it upon myself to make those decisions and assumptions.
It really isn't working out too well for me. We make the choice of what leads us. It can be the Holy Spirit, or it can be the flesh. Sometimes you have to struggle, you have to endure and respond with love, as Christ would. Wrestling with God causes upheavel, not peace. I don't want to wrestle anymore. I am ready to lay flat out on my back, shoulders down, pinned to His will. Sometimes it is so hard to just surrender and have faith.
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
"connecting" to God
I have basically been living life on my own lately, like totally on my own. Though God desires to be a part, I have kept myself secluded from him for about two weeks now. I don't know why. I do know how though, I lost my "connection".
I read a story last night about this guy that couldn't get his car to start. Ended up that the battery cable connections were totally corroded. The junk causing the corrison was blocking the ability of the power to reach the battery.
There virtually was no connection.
This same thing happens to us sometimes. We don't even realize that this corrosion is building. It can be a slow process, it can be a fast process. Nothing even has to be in the way of the connection, we just don't use it, so we lose it. Our connection is lost, and the power just doesn't come through. All we have to do is clear the path. The power is there waiting to be tapped into. Sometimes you don't even realize that the corrosion is occurring. Then one day you realize that something in your life is missing. You don't have that same spark you did. You lose touch~ you slow your Bible reading, you quit praying.... you lose your connection.
I lost my connection. I never lost my faith, but I lost my close realtionship. I am thankful to God that I have the connection back now. He knew just what I needed, at just the right time. I am so thankful that He continues to pursue me, even when I don't keep in touch. Thanks God for putting the people and circumstances in my life that drive me to you. I love you!
I read a story last night about this guy that couldn't get his car to start. Ended up that the battery cable connections were totally corroded. The junk causing the corrison was blocking the ability of the power to reach the battery.
There virtually was no connection.
This same thing happens to us sometimes. We don't even realize that this corrosion is building. It can be a slow process, it can be a fast process. Nothing even has to be in the way of the connection, we just don't use it, so we lose it. Our connection is lost, and the power just doesn't come through. All we have to do is clear the path. The power is there waiting to be tapped into. Sometimes you don't even realize that the corrosion is occurring. Then one day you realize that something in your life is missing. You don't have that same spark you did. You lose touch~ you slow your Bible reading, you quit praying.... you lose your connection.
I lost my connection. I never lost my faith, but I lost my close realtionship. I am thankful to God that I have the connection back now. He knew just what I needed, at just the right time. I am so thankful that He continues to pursue me, even when I don't keep in touch. Thanks God for putting the people and circumstances in my life that drive me to you. I love you!
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Thursday, May 08, 2008
Somebody is Praying for You
I read this (below) this morning, and had to smile... how thankful I am that others have loved me enough to pray for me! Never under estimate the power of intercessory prayer!!
www.StreamingFaith.com
May 08, 2008
Somebody is Praying for You
by Bishop Keith Butler www.StreamingFaith.com
May 08, 2008
Somebody is Praying for You
For I say, through the grace given unto me, to every man that is among you, not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think; but to think soberly, according as God hath dealt to every man the measure of faith. Romans 12:3 (KJV)
We need to give credit where credit is due. You may be very blessed. And if you are, know this: it is not you that caused it. You are blessed because God blessed you. That is the opinion you ought to have of yourself. Realize that your blessings did not start and end with you. They started and ended with God. Somebody has been praying for you, and it was their prayers that brought you through.
The way God does things sometimes astonishes me. With God, it does not matter how much you learned in school. It does not matter how good you can scheme and maneuver the business deal. It does not matter how eloquent your speech is. That is not what's putting you over. What's putting you over is that God has blessed you in spite of yourself. Somebody who has gone on before you prayed for you to be blessed.
Some of us had mothers, grandmothers and great-grandmothers that prayed for God's mercy to be extended toward us. Some of us are still living off the prayers and blessings of great-grandparents that we have never even met.
To think soberly is being aware that God has somebody praying for you right now in the midnight hour. They are praying and interceding for you so that mercy could come your way. So, when you fall down and hit your face on the pavement of life, God has somebody praying for you.
When you keep everything in proper perspective, you can think soberly, understanding that God and only God gets the glory for all the good in your life. God is good all the time.
Give glory to His holy name!
Scripture Reference: Romans 13:7; Matthew 22:21
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
Make it a Goal..to Ensure Eternal Life
HI ! I arrived yesterday in Tuscon, it is awesome, beautiful, cool (like "neato" cool, not cool cool),.... We have been very busy learning, learning, learning!! Not alot of down time, and not very good wireless access so far. Bear with me if this cuts me off in mid post!!
I posted an email below that I received from my nephew and niece. I would appreciate you guys reading it and praying for them and considering to assist financially in any way God leads you.
I finally got to attend my church yesterday! I was so glad! I enjoyed the church I went to with my mother -in-law while she was unable to drive, but it just isn't the same as fellowship with people you have made relationships with at your home church...people you have prayed with, prayed for, and who have prayed for you. I have had a great time visiting Owen Valley Christian Fellowship! I loved there services! I hope to implement some of their style into our own services. I loved how friendly everyone was & seeing the many smiling faces. I'll have to say that if I did not have a home church, I would certainly attend there! I am glad to be back "home" again :-)
One thing this past Sunday that really stood out in my mind that our pastor talked about was, ( not quoting.. just summing it up) when I see what extremes people will go to, to ensure they have more time left here on this earth in their earthly body~ what they sacrifice for a life that will end in a few years no matter what... I wonder what they will do to ensure that they are going to eternity? He talked about the guy that broke and cut off his own arm to ensure escape from being trapped under a boulder. How hard it was, yet necessary to ensure that life did not end there on that mountain top.
What would you do to ensure your life eternal? Are you doing it, are you thinking about it, are you acting upon it?
I posted an email below that I received from my nephew and niece. I would appreciate you guys reading it and praying for them and considering to assist financially in any way God leads you.
I finally got to attend my church yesterday! I was so glad! I enjoyed the church I went to with my mother -in-law while she was unable to drive, but it just isn't the same as fellowship with people you have made relationships with at your home church...people you have prayed with, prayed for, and who have prayed for you. I have had a great time visiting Owen Valley Christian Fellowship! I loved there services! I hope to implement some of their style into our own services. I loved how friendly everyone was & seeing the many smiling faces. I'll have to say that if I did not have a home church, I would certainly attend there! I am glad to be back "home" again :-)
One thing this past Sunday that really stood out in my mind that our pastor talked about was, ( not quoting.. just summing it up) when I see what extremes people will go to, to ensure they have more time left here on this earth in their earthly body~ what they sacrifice for a life that will end in a few years no matter what... I wonder what they will do to ensure that they are going to eternity? He talked about the guy that broke and cut off his own arm to ensure escape from being trapped under a boulder. How hard it was, yet necessary to ensure that life did not end there on that mountain top.
What would you do to ensure your life eternal? Are you doing it, are you thinking about it, are you acting upon it?
Friday, May 02, 2008
The Veil
In our women's study we have been learning intimately about the tabernacle. I would have never really thought in a million years it would keep my interest. I stand here today and tell you (ok, sit and type), It has been amazing! I am sure that much of it has to do with Beth Moore and her ability to just pull me in. I am also sure that having my mind open to learning and understanding the word has benefited me greatly! But WOW! I love being able to see & connect all these things in the bible now and have much more clarity about them. The veil~ I never thought much of the word...something a bride wears, right? The significance of what I have learned of the veil will enable me to never look at that word the same again.
I was reading II Corinthians today, and it mentions the veil quite a bit. A veil is clearly a separation (from what I have learned in my study). II Corinthians talks about our hearts being covered with a veil.. our minds being covered with a veil. I think the people in Corinth were set so much on the LAW, they made it hard to remove the veil. They were so caught up in the law, they forgot all about the unveiling (Christ death), they forgot about grace and the one who came so that we might receive it. God wants our hearts and minds to be unveiled... and to bask in His glory.
I was reading II Corinthians today, and it mentions the veil quite a bit. A veil is clearly a separation (from what I have learned in my study). II Corinthians talks about our hearts being covered with a veil.. our minds being covered with a veil. I think the people in Corinth were set so much on the LAW, they made it hard to remove the veil. They were so caught up in the law, they forgot all about the unveiling (Christ death), they forgot about grace and the one who came so that we might receive it. God wants our hearts and minds to be unveiled... and to bask in His glory.
ddddddddddSoak it in, radiate it out.
We have got to keep pressing on toward better behavior, no doubt.... I think Paul is clearly telling us to stop being "religious" and "legalistic". Remove the veil, remove the condemnation~ The veil is torn~ from top to bottom, He wants us to enter in just as we are. We must be unveiled to begin this relationship and to maintain it. You cannot veil yourself from God. Just be you. Don't make things complicated, keep it simple. Keep it true. When the veil is gone, that is when you will really see God and the grace of God. Yep, the new testament really is the old testament revealed... Beth Moore is right again!
Thursday, May 01, 2008
my purpose????
It has been almost two years ago now that I embarked upon this journey of figuring out "what my purpose is". I had heard a lot about it...but never bothered to venture out and figure it out for myself. I was brand new to having a relationship with God. Though I had been a "Christian" for twenty something years.... I had never given it all over and truly invited Jesus into my heart. I was just going through the motions before~~ It had been suggested to me to start a prayer journal to help me visualize what God's purpose was for me, and for me to thus...discover my life purpose. I plan to post those beginning conversations here as I get this blog up and running.
I never really attended church a a child. I knew and believed there was a heaven, a mighty God...but as far as His love for me... a personal relationship with Christ, the sacrifice made..... I had no clue.
Thankfully, God does not care about what has happened in my past, or my lack of knowledge to His word. He has pursued me, for me....and that was His only motive. He has been following me around all my life... just waiting for me to grab ahold! Many obstacles have been in my way, most self imposed. I think the biggest obstacle though, for me was just surrendering. Right where I was in my life, with all my bad habits ~ It took me a long time to realize that I could never be what I was designed to be by trying to do it all on my own. Having taken God on as my partner...my lifeline, it is all falling into place. It is so much easier too. Instead of allowing the obstacles to put up roadblocks that stop me, I am able to climb over the obstacles, and reach the other side.
I never really attended church a a child. I knew and believed there was a heaven, a mighty God...but as far as His love for me... a personal relationship with Christ, the sacrifice made..... I had no clue.
Thankfully, God does not care about what has happened in my past, or my lack of knowledge to His word. He has pursued me, for me....and that was His only motive. He has been following me around all my life... just waiting for me to grab ahold! Many obstacles have been in my way, most self imposed. I think the biggest obstacle though, for me was just surrendering. Right where I was in my life, with all my bad habits ~ It took me a long time to realize that I could never be what I was designed to be by trying to do it all on my own. Having taken God on as my partner...my lifeline, it is all falling into place. It is so much easier too. Instead of allowing the obstacles to put up roadblocks that stop me, I am able to climb over the obstacles, and reach the other side.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
A process....
I was baptized nearly 20 years ago. That saddens me. It saddens me because I realize now that I did it out of a legalism thing, instead of out of my heart. It was what I was supposed to do.
I went to church regularly during that time of my life, but I never had a relationship with Christ. I never even knew there was any difference in going to church, and having a relationship. I know now that LOTS of people go to church, not half as many have a relationship .... I was one of them, for a long time. I eventually quit going to church (probably due to lack of relationship). The really scary saddest part of all is that I taught Sunday school... I helped with the youth, I taught at vacation bible school. I went to church Sunday morning, Sunday night, Wednesday night.... Yet I knew nothing. NOTHING. I was not a Christian in the Bible sense of the word. I was a Christian in the worldly sense of the word...if that makes sense. The honest truth is, I had no idea I was a "fake".
If you knew me then, forgive me for making claims I knew nothing about. Forgive me for being such a poor example. I was doing the best I could with what knowledge I had. Thank God that He lingered around me...He never gave up. He is revealing himself and His word to me continuously. It is a process. I am loving the trip!
I went to church regularly during that time of my life, but I never had a relationship with Christ. I never even knew there was any difference in going to church, and having a relationship. I know now that LOTS of people go to church, not half as many have a relationship .... I was one of them, for a long time. I eventually quit going to church (probably due to lack of relationship). The really scary saddest part of all is that I taught Sunday school... I helped with the youth, I taught at vacation bible school. I went to church Sunday morning, Sunday night, Wednesday night.... Yet I knew nothing. NOTHING. I was not a Christian in the Bible sense of the word. I was a Christian in the worldly sense of the word...if that makes sense. The honest truth is, I had no idea I was a "fake".
If you knew me then, forgive me for making claims I knew nothing about. Forgive me for being such a poor example. I was doing the best I could with what knowledge I had. Thank God that He lingered around me...He never gave up. He is revealing himself and His word to me continuously. It is a process. I am loving the trip!
Monday, April 28, 2008
Refresh and Renew
In Epshesian 4:23 we read that we are to be constantly renewed in the spirits of our minds, having a fresh mental and spiritual attitude. Attitudes begin in our minds. Our minds are renewed by the word of God, and by rest.
If reading the word daily renews our minds and changes our attitudes, then why aren't we making more effort to do it? I can start out having the best of intentions, and then the next thing I know it is time for something else....so again I put "refreshing my mind" on the back burner. This keeps happening and happening through the day, until I realize that I am not my usual happy self. My prayers don't seem to "connect". I feel a million miles away from God, when last week I felt like His best friend.
Who do you think moved?
We cannot and will not stay refreshed and renewed if we do not make an effort to do it. He is speaking to us through His word. Pray for your mind to be opened and renewed prior to opening His word. Allow the Spirit to convict you of this and then act upon it. Reading for ten minutes, is better than not reading at all.
Set aside the time. Schedule it if you have to! Don't let other things bump it out. It is crucial and is going to affect all other aspects of your life. Things will actually go much better once you ahve the routine down! You will be amazed how much better your attitude will become when it is freshened up with words from God.
Our pastor told us this weekend that God specifically set a day aside for us to rest. He did this with a purpose. We NEED that time. We need to renew our bodies. We need to rest and refresh! You cannot go,go,go...and keep going. Your body will just eventually stop being able to "go". Our minds are the same way. "Plug in" to the word and get recharged. It is sort of like one of those super chargers.... a little charge goes a long way. Just remember to do it again, and don't ever let the charge go out all the way.
If reading the word daily renews our minds and changes our attitudes, then why aren't we making more effort to do it? I can start out having the best of intentions, and then the next thing I know it is time for something else....so again I put "refreshing my mind" on the back burner. This keeps happening and happening through the day, until I realize that I am not my usual happy self. My prayers don't seem to "connect". I feel a million miles away from God, when last week I felt like His best friend.
Who do you think moved?
We cannot and will not stay refreshed and renewed if we do not make an effort to do it. He is speaking to us through His word. Pray for your mind to be opened and renewed prior to opening His word. Allow the Spirit to convict you of this and then act upon it. Reading for ten minutes, is better than not reading at all.
Set aside the time. Schedule it if you have to! Don't let other things bump it out. It is crucial and is going to affect all other aspects of your life. Things will actually go much better once you ahve the routine down! You will be amazed how much better your attitude will become when it is freshened up with words from God.
Our pastor told us this weekend that God specifically set a day aside for us to rest. He did this with a purpose. We NEED that time. We need to renew our bodies. We need to rest and refresh! You cannot go,go,go...and keep going. Your body will just eventually stop being able to "go". Our minds are the same way. "Plug in" to the word and get recharged. It is sort of like one of those super chargers.... a little charge goes a long way. Just remember to do it again, and don't ever let the charge go out all the way.
Sunday, April 27, 2008
The song that sees me through
I finally found a clip of this music to post. Click on the link below the words to this song to listen to the clip.
What a Faithful God by Robert Critchley
Lord, I come before Your throne of grace. I find rest in Your presence, and fullness of Joy.
In worship and wonder, I behold Your face. Singing what a faithful God have I
What a faithful God have I, What a faithful God What a faithful God have I, Faithful in every way.
Lord of mercy, You have heard my cry. Through the Storm You're the beacon, My song in the night In the shelter of Your wings Hear my hearts reply, Singing what a faithful God have I
What a faithful God have I, What a faithful God. What a faithful God have I, Faithful in every way.
Lord, all sovereign Granting peace from heaven. Let me comfort those who suffer, With the comfort You have given. I will tell of Your great love For as long as I live.. Singing what a faithful God have I.
What a faithful God have I, What a faithful God. What a faithful God have I, Faithful in every way.
What a faithful God have I, what a faithful God. What a faithful God....
What a Faithful God by Robert Critchley
Lord, I come before Your throne of grace. I find rest in Your presence, and fullness of Joy.
In worship and wonder, I behold Your face. Singing what a faithful God have I
What a faithful God have I, What a faithful God What a faithful God have I, Faithful in every way.
Lord of mercy, You have heard my cry. Through the Storm You're the beacon, My song in the night In the shelter of Your wings Hear my hearts reply, Singing what a faithful God have I
What a faithful God have I, What a faithful God. What a faithful God have I, Faithful in every way.
Lord, all sovereign Granting peace from heaven. Let me comfort those who suffer, With the comfort You have given. I will tell of Your great love For as long as I live.. Singing what a faithful God have I.
What a faithful God have I, What a faithful God. What a faithful God have I, Faithful in every way.
What a faithful God have I, what a faithful God. What a faithful God....
http://www.wildox.ca/2002/mp3s/critchley/bt/02-WhatAFaithfulGod.mp3
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Come to know His love
Good Morning! I hope your day is awesome and your load is light! I am so looking forward to the next several days of working on the Emmaus Walk. I cannot wait to see lives transformed. It seriously is amazing. Please be praying that God is with each person there and that all get maximum benefits from the time we will spend together.
Ephesians 3:19 Amplified Bible
19[That you may really come] to know [practically, [a]through experience for yourselves] the love of Christ, which far surpasses [b]mere knowledge [without experience]; that you may be filled [through all your being] [c]unto all the fullness of God [may have the richest measure of the divine Presence, and [d]become a body wholly filled and flooded with God Himself]!
I am so thankful for each and every one of you :-) My life has been blessed beyond belief. It is amazing to me that the love I feel for my family, my friends....but, it is nothing compared to the love Christ has for each of us. The Bible tells us His love surpasses all understanding, When I think about how much love I have within me, it is too much to even fathom the love of Christ. I guess that is why I feel this overwhelming joy withing my soul... there is just too much love there to do nothing! It is like that song~ I wanna sing, I wanna shout... praise the Lord da da da da.. da da da da.. praise the Lord!! All you have to do is let Him in, take a little time to become acquainted and allow His love to come to you and in turn pour out of you. Adios Amigos..until Sunday xoxo Michelle
Update from Logan and Amber from Speaking Out Ministries
Dear Friends,
I just wanted to share a quick update with you. Today Logan and I received some more finances and we are now only $500 away from our goal for our trip to China this summer! This is an incredible miracle and we appreciate all of you who have been praying and supporting us. Please e-mail us with any prayer requests that you have!
With Love in Christ,
Amber
Ephesians 3:19
19[That you may really come] to know [practically, [a]through experience for yourselves] the love of Christ, which far surpasses [b]mere knowledge [without experience]; that you may be filled [through all your being] [c]unto all the fullness of God [may have the richest measure of the divine Presence, and [d]become a body wholly filled and flooded with God Himself]!
Ephesians 3:19 Amplified Bible
19[That you may really come] to know [practically, [a]through experience for yourselves] the love of Christ, which far surpasses [b]mere knowledge [without experience]; that you may be filled [through all your being] [c]unto all the fullness of God [may have the richest measure of the divine Presence, and [d]become a body wholly filled and flooded with God Himself]!
I am so thankful for each and every one of you :-) My life has been blessed beyond belief. It is amazing to me that the love I feel for my family, my friends....but, it is nothing compared to the love Christ has for each of us. The Bible tells us His love surpasses all understanding, When I think about how much love I have within me, it is too much to even fathom the love of Christ. I guess that is why I feel this overwhelming joy withing my soul... there is just too much love there to do nothing! It is like that song~ I wanna sing, I wanna shout... praise the Lord da da da da.. da da da da.. praise the Lord!! All you have to do is let Him in, take a little time to become acquainted and allow His love to come to you and in turn pour out of you. Adios Amigos..until Sunday xoxo Michelle
Update from Logan and Amber from Speaking Out Ministries
Dear Friends,
I just wanted to share a quick update with you. Today Logan and I received some more finances and we are now only $500 away from our goal for our trip to China this summer! This is an incredible miracle and we appreciate all of you who have been praying and supporting us. Please e-mail us with any prayer requests that you have!
With Love in Christ,
Amber
Ephesians 3:19
19[That you may really come] to know [practically, [a]through experience for yourselves] the love of Christ, which far surpasses [b]mere knowledge [without experience]; that you may be filled [through all your being] [c]unto all the fullness of God [may have the richest measure of the divine Presence, and [d]become a body wholly filled and flooded with God Himself]!
Monday, April 21, 2008
the weekend whizzed by!
Hello! This weekend has been action packed! Can it truly be Monday morning already??
God blessed me this weekend with not only being able to spend time with my mom and sisters and extended family... but to also give support for cancer research by particpating in the "Walk for Cure" activities on Saturday. Though it was fairly cold and raining, many were there proudly honoring and lifting loved ones affected by this disease.
We all walked in memory and honor of my grandma, Virginia Mattingly. Grandma went to be with the Lord 23 years ago this June. I feel sad that I did not have an opportunity to know her as an adult, but am thankful that I do have many memories of her throughout my life. Some are hilarious and some are sad. I am blessed with all of them and that her life can live on through me. Thanks Grandma !
I also helped to sponsor a friend to go on the Emmaus walk this weekend, so things were pretty busy with that as well. God is amazing how He works everything out! How uplifting to spend the closing ceremony with so many awesome fellow believers! We heard testimony after testimony of how God performed his awesomeness in their lives. It was a great weekend indeed! I am off to work for two days, then headed to Camp Indi-Co-So to work my first Emmaus! If I don't talk to anyone before that, will be back next Sunday night. xoxo Michelle
God blessed me this weekend with not only being able to spend time with my mom and sisters and extended family... but to also give support for cancer research by particpating in the "Walk for Cure" activities on Saturday. Though it was fairly cold and raining, many were there proudly honoring and lifting loved ones affected by this disease.
We all walked in memory and honor of my grandma, Virginia Mattingly. Grandma went to be with the Lord 23 years ago this June. I feel sad that I did not have an opportunity to know her as an adult, but am thankful that I do have many memories of her throughout my life. Some are hilarious and some are sad. I am blessed with all of them and that her life can live on through me. Thanks Grandma !
I also helped to sponsor a friend to go on the Emmaus walk this weekend, so things were pretty busy with that as well. God is amazing how He works everything out! How uplifting to spend the closing ceremony with so many awesome fellow believers! We heard testimony after testimony of how God performed his awesomeness in their lives. It was a great weekend indeed! I am off to work for two days, then headed to Camp Indi-Co-So to work my first Emmaus! If I don't talk to anyone before that, will be back next Sunday night. xoxo Michelle
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
The main thing is to keep the main thing the main thing.
"The main thing is to keep the main thing the main thing."
I read that today, written by Joyce Myers, and couldn't agree more! Sometimes it is so hard to keep our priorities in order. Society constantly is badgering us to keep up with the Jones', in reality all we have to do is seek His kingdom, and all else will be given to us.
Matthew 6:33"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."
We are so busy trying to keep up to par with everyone else, that we forget the fact that God has promised us to take care of everything if we seek Him first. I am so amazed how my life is flowing without me doing anything other than what I am supposed to be doing according to the Word. I think about how when I was trying to make my life great, to be happy, to keep up... I was self serving, and it never brought me the satisfaction that was promised. NOW, I try to seek self last (key word, TRY) and seek God's kingdom first... and TA-DA .... my life is going along just marvelous! It is funny too how quickly God will remind me of that when I begin to go astray.
I am not saying that I don't have any trials, or nothing bad happens. That is not the case at all. However, when these things happen, I don't fall apart and get freaked out. I know that everything does have a purpose, and my life is not going to abruptly stop if an issue arises. I still have my inner joy, I don't crumble.... I pray to the one who has promised to care for me, comfort me, and never abandon me.
See Psalms 37:4
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Sometimes I Forget to be Thankful! please forgive me.
Good Sunday Morning!
I was privileged to participate in a "prayer meeting" last night, where I saw lives transformed. I saw outright gratefulness and awe and people become real. I love to partake in things like this, as it renews my own soul...seeing them so overtaken with God's love. There is just nothing better than to be with a community of fellow believers, to sing together and pray together...to break bread together! I love the bond it forms between complete strangers.
Sometimes as we go along in this life, and things get sort of mundane... I think we forget (or at least I do) how awesome God's love is. We forget how it feels to be totally wrapped up in it! We forget to seriously count our blessing and be truly thankful.
After arriving home last night, as my mind replayed the evening, it hit me how truly blessed I am. I was sitting there thinking about all my blessings, and it was overwhelming! Not only did God sacrifice His only son, for my redemption..He did it with no strings attached. He loves me and wants the very best for me. I have done nothing to deserve this. In truth, I am unworthy.
As I reflected on this, things just came pouring to me... the extreme amount of blessings I have been given personally. All I could think was WOW, WOW, wow! Who am I to receive all of this?
It is easy to get caught up in the little things of life that annoy us. It is so easy to get upset with someone, to have a negative attitude, to lose sight of what is truly important... Really, we don't even deserve the things that are given to us freely. We take them for granted. We complain about our jobs, our kids, the TV is broken, the car won't start... Instead of embracing what God has laid at our feet, we whine about it. We are like an ungrateful five year old that doesn't like the present you got him. The thing is, we aren't five...and we don't even have a reason to have the present given. Yet, we forget to be thankful. To be grateful. Not one of us can claim a bigger sacrifice given than our Creator... and yet, He just keeps giving. Amazing~
Write out your blessings today. Take the time to realize your blessings and to be truly thankful for them. Even the water that comes out the spout is a blessing.
I was privileged to participate in a "prayer meeting" last night, where I saw lives transformed. I saw outright gratefulness and awe and people become real. I love to partake in things like this, as it renews my own soul...seeing them so overtaken with God's love. There is just nothing better than to be with a community of fellow believers, to sing together and pray together...to break bread together! I love the bond it forms between complete strangers.
Sometimes as we go along in this life, and things get sort of mundane... I think we forget (or at least I do) how awesome God's love is. We forget how it feels to be totally wrapped up in it! We forget to seriously count our blessing and be truly thankful.
After arriving home last night, as my mind replayed the evening, it hit me how truly blessed I am. I was sitting there thinking about all my blessings, and it was overwhelming! Not only did God sacrifice His only son, for my redemption..He did it with no strings attached. He loves me and wants the very best for me. I have done nothing to deserve this. In truth, I am unworthy.
As I reflected on this, things just came pouring to me... the extreme amount of blessings I have been given personally. All I could think was WOW, WOW, wow! Who am I to receive all of this?
It is easy to get caught up in the little things of life that annoy us. It is so easy to get upset with someone, to have a negative attitude, to lose sight of what is truly important... Really, we don't even deserve the things that are given to us freely. We take them for granted. We complain about our jobs, our kids, the TV is broken, the car won't start... Instead of embracing what God has laid at our feet, we whine about it. We are like an ungrateful five year old that doesn't like the present you got him. The thing is, we aren't five...and we don't even have a reason to have the present given. Yet, we forget to be thankful. To be grateful. Not one of us can claim a bigger sacrifice given than our Creator... and yet, He just keeps giving. Amazing~
Write out your blessings today. Take the time to realize your blessings and to be truly thankful for them. Even the water that comes out the spout is a blessing.
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Speaking Out Ministries
A note (see below) from Amber and Logan at Speaking Out Ministries. I highly recommend supporting them!! Every dollar counts, Thanks!
(For those that don't know, this couple is planning mission work in China. They will be going on a "trial run" this summer. China is in desperate need of people to be willing to share the gospel. Their government is quite opposed to Christianity.)
Dear Friends,
Logan and I wanted to write you all and share with you the joy that we have today. We were able to purchase our airplane tickets! Praise God!!! We want to thank all of you who have helped us get this far. We are still needing $3,000 for in country ministry, language studies, and food while we are there. Once again thank you for your prayers and our support, we would not be here without you. Please check out our website http://www.speakingoutministries.com/ for more information.
****If you would like to help support us please make checks payable to Logan Parker and mail them to:
Logan Parker
5604 E 71st place #907
Tulsa, OK 74136
(For those that don't know, this couple is planning mission work in China. They will be going on a "trial run" this summer. China is in desperate need of people to be willing to share the gospel. Their government is quite opposed to Christianity.)
Dear Friends,
Logan and I wanted to write you all and share with you the joy that we have today. We were able to purchase our airplane tickets! Praise God!!! We want to thank all of you who have helped us get this far. We are still needing $3,000 for in country ministry, language studies, and food while we are there. Once again thank you for your prayers and our support, we would not be here without you. Please check out our website http://www.speakingoutministries.com/ for more information.
****If you would like to help support us please make checks payable to Logan Parker and mail them to:
Logan Parker
5604 E 71st place #907
Tulsa, OK 74136
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
creative writing assignment...
This is a letter I wrote while doing some "creative writing" . I was supposed to be writing an essay about having died.... what would I have wanted to tell those I left behind.
I thought this blog and would be a perfect avenue to tell you all right NOW, what I would have wished I had said before departing.
To my wonderful family and friends,
I know where I am going and for this I am glad. So many people have had direct influence on my ability to reach the ultimate destination. The one that sealed my eternity though, was Jesus.
Many of you know Him, many of you know OF Him. I am imploring with all of you to make it your top priority to develop a relationship with Him. Don’t wait until you die to learn how you should have lived. As Jim Elliott said, “He is no fool, who gives what he cannot keep, to gain what he cannot lose.”
I spent so much of my life being afraid of what others would think or say… of being ridiculed. There is nothing anyone can say or do that will affect your life more than accepting Jesus as your own personal savior. Now, from beyond, let me tell you how thankful I am that God never gives up on us. He holds nothing against us. Once we confess our sin and ask for forgiveness, it is done! You have nothing to prove to God. He already knows all you have done… good and bad. There is no hiding, no amount of wrong doing. No sin is great enough that would turn his back on you. Sin is sin, a lie, speeding, cheating, and even taking a life. They hold the same weight in God’s eye. To have you in his fold though, that is more important to Him than anything.
The bible, God’s word tells us of amazing things yet to come. We have only been exposed to a small fraction of what truly awaits us. Don’t risk not getting to enjoy it all. Don’t sacrifice your soul for earthly pleasures. I want to see you again. I want to laugh and touch your arm, see your smile.. I want to share a life with you where there are no deadlines, no worries, and no pain.
There is so much I need to say, so much I want you to know. But there is nothing more crucial I can share with you than to open your bible, read God’s word, pray…and ask Jesus into your heart. Confess your sins, ALLOW them to be forgiven, accept your eternal life. Continue this relationship regardless of anything else.
Not sure how to maintain it? Do it just like any other relationship. God wants nothing more from you than you would want out of a relationship. No one knows how long they are going to remain alive here on earth. Ask God for the strength and wisdom to help you live wisely. Seek His will; be convicted through His spirit of your sins…..
Keep your eye on the prize and be ready upon leaving this earth to hear your heavenly father say, “Well done my good and faithful servant, come in…come in!”
I thought this blog and would be a perfect avenue to tell you all right NOW, what I would have wished I had said before departing.
To my wonderful family and friends,
I know where I am going and for this I am glad. So many people have had direct influence on my ability to reach the ultimate destination. The one that sealed my eternity though, was Jesus.
Many of you know Him, many of you know OF Him. I am imploring with all of you to make it your top priority to develop a relationship with Him. Don’t wait until you die to learn how you should have lived. As Jim Elliott said, “He is no fool, who gives what he cannot keep, to gain what he cannot lose.”
I spent so much of my life being afraid of what others would think or say… of being ridiculed. There is nothing anyone can say or do that will affect your life more than accepting Jesus as your own personal savior. Now, from beyond, let me tell you how thankful I am that God never gives up on us. He holds nothing against us. Once we confess our sin and ask for forgiveness, it is done! You have nothing to prove to God. He already knows all you have done… good and bad. There is no hiding, no amount of wrong doing. No sin is great enough that would turn his back on you. Sin is sin, a lie, speeding, cheating, and even taking a life. They hold the same weight in God’s eye. To have you in his fold though, that is more important to Him than anything.
The bible, God’s word tells us of amazing things yet to come. We have only been exposed to a small fraction of what truly awaits us. Don’t risk not getting to enjoy it all. Don’t sacrifice your soul for earthly pleasures. I want to see you again. I want to laugh and touch your arm, see your smile.. I want to share a life with you where there are no deadlines, no worries, and no pain.
There is so much I need to say, so much I want you to know. But there is nothing more crucial I can share with you than to open your bible, read God’s word, pray…and ask Jesus into your heart. Confess your sins, ALLOW them to be forgiven, accept your eternal life. Continue this relationship regardless of anything else.
Not sure how to maintain it? Do it just like any other relationship. God wants nothing more from you than you would want out of a relationship. No one knows how long they are going to remain alive here on earth. Ask God for the strength and wisdom to help you live wisely. Seek His will; be convicted through His spirit of your sins…..
Keep your eye on the prize and be ready upon leaving this earth to hear your heavenly father say, “Well done my good and faithful servant, come in…come in!”
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